Looking through the draft posts that never got published, I found this one. Despite how hard I have been finding things recently, this draft post from July 22 (see Photo) proves to me we have moved forwards. DaddyETW is not yet home 24/7, but he is here a lot more, and local when he is not.

I am still struggling to find balance of chores to fun…and have added work back into that mix too. There is still resentment that while I’m doing the cooking/cleaning etc Daddy and the Wild Ones can play…but now DaddyETW knows how much I am struggling. Together we are trying to find a balance. We haven’t made any firm decisions yet (life is still pretty changeable for the time being within the ETW family) but we are discussing options and ways forward together, which is a big change from me trying to do it alone and feeling like he wasn’t willing to step up further. A lot of our problems were (and still are) communication based…but at least we have recognised that now and are trying to find ways to communicate and hear each other properly rather than making assumptions or jumping to conclusions.

Despite what he may believe, neither he nor I are perfect. We are two imperfect people, working together to help our family thrive…we clash often, but we still face the world together.

So yes, there may be times it feels that we aren’t getting anywhere, and are actually going backwards…but when you take time and actually look back fully, I can see now that we are still moving forwards and the the bumps and blips don’t mean we are fighting a losing battle, even if it feels like it at the time.